The last six months have been hard. Very emotional. This has led to a time of great spiritual growth and transformation. After much eye-opening, evaluating, confession, and repentance. It has been a gut-wrenching tear-inducing time, filled with sadness, anguish, anger, numbness, and questions. Things have happened that I never saw coming, and about the time I start healing from a round of challenge, another hits. And it just keeps hitting. I realize that I did not do things wrong in three certain cases. And yet I have been attacked as though I did. And the attacks continue to happen, as if I did. But my conscious is clean. You, Abba, have set me free in these things. The Bible searched day after day and wise counselors consulted have affirmed this, too, but that does not mean I should not look in the mirror and see what I need to change and confess. I am not perfect and make mistakes and do wrong far too often. However, just because I am innocent with three occasions, it does not mean ...